I have developed this persona of sports chick meets business casual. And that’s what it is, a persona. It has been hard edged and intimidating, which is really not what I had intended. It was a barrier in a sense for people not to get too close. The weirdest part? I didn’t even know I was doing it. All I need to fulfill that is persona is some straight up killer heels, super spiffy clothes, and then boom. Intimidation persona complete.
The reality is I am a down-to-earth, relatively easy going person who is easy to talk to. Now, it would be MUCH easier to get the aforementioned clothes than change my style and approach to people. However, I am not the type of person to take the easy way out. I am nothing if not true to myself. It will suck some of the time, and take more personal growth that will most likely be painful. But I will do it, because that is my truth and my destiny to be that kind of leader in Arbonne.
This year possibly more than any other year has been a year of change, epiphanies, and becoming the person I am truly meant to be. If there was one thing I thought about myself my entire adult life was that I was always me. I didn’t put on airs with people. The odd thing is as you grow into adulthood is sometimes who you are smacks you right in the face. Like BOOYAH, the past 34 years I was just kidding, this is who you truly are. And it’s scary. Despite Facebook and this blog, I really don’t like people knowing the real me. In the past that has just led to heartbreak and misery. The keywords in that sentence are the past. I am sure I will have heartbreak again, but at least this time it’ll be in my truth.
What is scarier to you: becoming the person you were meant to be and letting people see you or staying stymied in your old self? For most of my life the former was infinitely scarier than the latter. Some people do not want to see the truth, and would rather keep you down than see you blossom into the person you were meant to be. The people that really love you will accept it right away, and sometimes the people who have known you the longest may take some time to see it or they may not see it at all.
The year of change and epiphanies just keeps getting better, and I am evolving into the person I am meant to be.