The last few months I have been living in the status quo. I have been working my business and my life, but not to the degree I should have been. More importantly, not to the degree I deserve to be.
Every time I have pushed myself it’s because of something I didn’t really understand. College I pushed to get a degree, but why? I went district manager because I had a day to complete something I worked so hard for, and I was going to be damned if I didn’t make it. I truly don’t know what happened when I completed Area Manager with Arbonne. It was quite honestly a blur of phone calls, activity, and wonderful mayhem. Inspired action is the magic word.
This push is different, and it’s different because I realize WHY I am pushing. In some ways it is worse. Before, I wasn’t thinking of why. I was ignorance on fire. I was focused on the result, which will get you to a certain point. I did not have a reason of my story of why I wanted something bigger. It was a different push. It was an external push, so to speak. My previous pushes and epiphanies were fueled by grief and/or stress.
The push I am having now is internal. I have realized my reason for doing this business, and going for it so big that it scares the living schnikes out of me. Internal pushes are as scary as any class four rapid, any height (I’m really scared of heights), or any disappointment in myself. They will push you to the brink, and then beyond if you choose to take the challenge.
I have never backed down from a challenge, and I’m certainly not going to start now.