I wrote this friends of mine, and it was asked that I share it. I agree I haven’t written here consistently lately, and thank you to all of my followers both new and old for sticking with me. I’M BACK.
The last few months I have been living in the status quo. I have been working my business and my life, but not to the degree I should have been. More importantly, not to the degree I deserve to be.
Every time I have pushed myself it’s because of something I didn’t really understand. College I pushed to get a degree, but why? I went district manager because I had a day to complete something I worked so hard for, and I was going to be damned if I didn’t make it. I truly don’t know what happened when I completed Area Manager with Arbonne. It was quite honestly a blur of phone calls, activity, and wonderful mayhem. Inspired action is the magic word.
This push is different, and it’s different because I realize WHY I am pushing. In some ways it is worse. Before, I wasn’t thinking of why. I was ignorance on fire. I was focused on the result, which will get you to a certain point. I did not have a reason of my story of why I wanted something bigger. It was a different push. It was an external push, so to speak. My previous pushes and epiphanies were fueled by grief and/or stress.
The push I am having now is internal. I have realized my reason for doing this business, and going for it so big that it scares the living schnikes out of me. Internal pushes are as scary as any class four rapid, any height (I’m really scared of heights), or any disappointment in myself. They will push you to the brink, and then beyond if you choose to take the challenge.
I have never backed down from a challenge, and I’m certainly not going to start now.
I went to see a speaker tonight named Cornell Thomas, and I had a number of takeaways. The biggest one for me was when started asking my friend about her superpower. Everyone has a superpower that is unique to them, and it’s our life purpose to figure out what that is and to serve the world. His analogy (Cornell’s) was when you don’t use your superpower, it would be like Superman walking to rescue a puppy instead of flying.
So what is your superpower? Mine is listening to others, assessing a problem, and applying a solution in a logical and analytical matter. I have known that I was a good listener for quite awhile, and I’ve become aware of my ability to solve other people’s problems. It is something I use quite often at work, with friends, etc. I realized tonight that I could be using it so much more effectively and more powerfully.
Why are we so afraid to identify and use it? It is all about fear, doubt, sense of deserving to be of service (self-deserving), and self-belief. Fear that they think the solution won’t work, and doubt that they will not believe me or that it is possible. Self-deserving and self-belief are the biggest culprits in holding myself back in most aspects of my life. The self-deserving part is where I deserve to share this gift with people, even if they reject it. The self-belief is my realization that I can change thousands of people’s lives by utilizing my superpower in combination with my story. Not only do I deserve to believe that I will change and impact the world in a real meaningful way by unleashing my superpower, but the rest of the world deserves it as well. I not only have a responsibility to that, but I have an obligation to leave this world better than I came into being. It’s utterly terrifying, and at the same time, it is one of the most freeing moments I have had. This is my purpose, this is my life, and it is mine to give.
I have a friend who at a young age has gone through two bouts of cancer, and some other very personal life changes that should not happen to a person so young. A lot of people would bow down to that, and have a pity party for themselves.
Instead she started her own personal movement to inspire people to start and end happy. She made a video that via index cards told her story, and at times tragic story. She is one of the strongest people I know. You can google it if you would like, you’ll see her video come up.
Full disclosure, I do not know her very well; I would like to point that out. However, there are lots of things that inspire me in writing, and watching this woman’s reaction to her life, and the events in her life before and after tragedy is miraculous, awesome sauce. It is a display of nothing short of pure will, courage, and blind, stupid stubborn (meant in the best possible way). I do not think she knows how many people she will inspire. I honestly think her story, her courage, her fortitude will teach thousands, if not millions of people, to take on their challenges in their own way. I am not a bullshitter, it’s not in my nature. I say what I mean, and I do what I say.
My life is enormously different than it was two years ago. The reason? Personal growth. I have read so many personal growth books in that time, I could start a section at Barnes and Noble. All of those books I thought were a bunch of new-age, feel-good b.s. (complete with me rolling my eyes at such things). But, I was WRONG. They have changed my life fundamentally.
Stolen from Facebook. I don’t know who, but I love it.
I am a scientist. That is my background, and essentially my faith. I love puzzles, I love questions, and I love figuring out how those two things intertwine.
When it comes to personal, emotional stuff though? I was not so much about that. I like cause and effect, clear and simple. Human emotion is not about cause and effect. It’s about experience and learning. It’s about applying often the b.s. you’ve been through throughout your lifetime, and figuring out how to get past it to live a better life.
Does this sound familiar? I have LIVED this life. The life of hiding, oppressing, and down-right scared life. Everyone’s life is different. I certainly do not know your experiences, but I do know mine. And I think being scared to be someone else, scared to live someone else’s story that you think should be yours, and scared to possibly grow out of that story is real for a lot of people. It was for me.
Fast-forward to now. I am happier than I have EVER been. It was due to discipline, personal growth, and reliance on people close to me. The last one was a big step for me. The other two were easy. Relying on other people, was not. But it was perhaps the single biggest force in my metamorphosis into being a happy, content person. Trust others; however hard it may be.
BE YOU. Even when it is the scariest thing you might ever do.
There is something amazing about Realizing things you thought dictated your life story, and realizing They no longer Matter.
What a freeing thought that is.
And to embrace and accept it as FACT is even bigger.
To be an adult is to be free. From what freedom that is for you to choose.
P.S. Everyone has those thoughts. I don’t care how powerful or your title in life, EVERYONE has those thoughts of imperfection.