I’ve
led
my
life
Making
myself
be
Invisible.
Letting
others
take
Credit,
while
I was
in the
Shadows.
it was to
Fit in,
to Belong
Because
even the
Illusion of
Belonging
was better
than no semblance
at all.
It was
an
Empty
hope
I kept
myself
small,
Hidden
to
Everyone.
Until
The
Painful
Self-discovery
of
My
Own
Worthiness.
Proved
me
Wrong.
I am
not
Perfect.
I am
still
Worth
Knowing.
I
AM
Not
Be
Invisible.
I
Am
a
Force.
I
am
Enough.
Just as
I
Am.
Untitled
The
memory
as
vivid
as
a
movie.
I was
completely
Broken.
The Girls
behind me
were
bashing
my seat
with their
Knees.
They asked
Did
I Care?
I said,
blankly,
No. I
don’t.
It
Didn’t.
Nothing
Did.
It was
the
Start
of the
Wall.
The
Start
of
Isolation.
The
Beginning
of so
many
Destructive,
Protective
habits.
and
they
All
Worked.
until
they
Didn’t.
Isolation,
poverty,
Walls
can
only
last
so
Long.
Before
I
Craved
something
Better.
Connection.
and
Life.
I
thought
I knew
what
Home
was.
I
didn’t.
Home
is the
Place
you
can be
You.
Without
judgement,
dismissal,
pettiness
of their
hope
lost.
the
Pedestal
has
been
Demolished
with the
Realization
of this
Heartbreak.
I am
Better
than
that.
I have
Found
my
Home.
In the
most
Unexpected
Place.
It’s
Time
to
break
the
habit,
the
twisted
seal of
Approval
always
Just
out of
Reach.
It’s time
to
come
Home.
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