This is my life. I have chosen it, pursued it, tasted it, lost myself and it briefly on my way journey to this moment. A series of life-defining moments have led to this Bold Act of Vulnerability that was unparalleled in my lifetime. I sang karaoke it was the song, “Invisible” by Hunter Hayes.
I had written about a series of shifts a few weeks ago, but it wasn’t enough for my psyche. Which is rare for me. Writing is usually enough of an outlet for me, along with nature. However, a combination of lack of outside time, stress, and little sleep led me to this moment of badass bravery.
It was cathartic, it was bold, and it was terrifying. I could feel my heart racing not at the beginning, but about halfway through because that is when I realized what I was doing. I let out a lifetime of pain, anger, sadness, betrayal, and shame, and let it leave my soul. Which is what I do with my writing, essentially. Except this time, I let other people see and hear my emotion in my voice in a way that was as a friend of mine put it “the bravest thing you’ve ever done.”
My mind is blown by this revelation, and I suddenly understand the power of music. I have always loved music, and know I understand why it touches my soul so much. It’s the vulnerability of the words, the performance, emotion, and letting people see that aspect of you. I did not care what others thought of me in that moment, and I went with it. It was one of the most inspiring, magical, pinnacle moments in my lifetime. Even better was my friends were there to experience it with me, and embrace me once I got off the stage.
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